The Room

Suffering with an addiction feels like being trapped in a room with a vanishing door. Sometimes you donโ€™t want to find the door. After all, the room is warm, with nice chairs and chic decor. There are no surprises. Your friends are there from time to time, but somehow they seem to be able to…

I dreamed a dream of time gone by

HOLY FUCK! A verrry traumatic drinking dream, out of nowhere!!! I don’t really think about drinking or sobriety much these days. It’s just part of my fabric that I don’t drink now. I don’t question it. Perhaps I need to take stock of my self care rituals etc. because after that dream, I found myself…

The 6 most important books I’ve read in my recovery so far

What books have you found most important in your recovery? ๐Ÿ“š ๐Ÿ–‹๏ธ As I approach 21 months of sobriety, I’m reading “The Big Leap” by Gay Hendricks, one that was recommended to me at a few weeks sober (I gave up then as it didn’t resonate, but now I am LOVING IT; it’s exactly what…

Taking off the sobriety “L plates” at long last

It took me ages to learn to drive. As someone who had historically been a high-flyer and had quietly rejected or mocked anything I wasn’t good at (namely building anything practical and any sports involving hand-eye coordination), I really didn’t know how to cope with learning to do something that I wasn’t quick at. It…

500 days! Boo-YAR!!!

  “Well, I drank more than a lifetime’s worth in the first 36 years of my life, so I thought I should call it a day.” “I just couldn’t moderate, so I figured I shouldn’t have it at all.” These are the sort of responses I have typically given when people ask me why I’m…